Well, if you are friends with me on Facebook, you know that I posted earlier about my dad being diagnosed today with the early stages of Alzheimer's. I wish I could be oblivious to what that means, but since his grandmother had it, this is not a new and confusing diagnosis for my family, we know exactly what lays ahead for us. In the past I would have let this heart-wrenching news throw me into a binge of unmatched proportions, but today? Today, I let it drive me, to a workout, filled with firsts.
First, let's see, today's skill was box jumps. After our warm up, the goal was to work on increasing our box jump height. The fact is, I have yet to do a box jump. Thanks to my bum ankle, weight, and sore lower back, I've always just stepped up, stepped down. Well, I got the box in front of me, and I didn't want to step up. I wanted to jump. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared. I looked at Jim Barone and said, "What if I fall". He said, "I'll pick you up and you'll do it again". Well, okay, if its just that simple, what's the big deal? So I fall on my face and wipe out, even if I do, I did so TRYING! I didn't fall on my face running from what scared me, I would fall on my face trying what I feared. So I tried it, AND I DID IT!!!!!!! I did my first box jump, on a 12" box. And I didn't just do it once or twice, I did it quite a few times....and I couldn't be more proud of myself (yet another first. I usually explain away and minimize my successes, but not today)
Now it's time for the WOD. Today's WOD doesn't look all that intimidating written on the board at first glance, but then, then you start doing it. Today's WOD was cleans, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1. In between each set of Cleans, you did 5 bronco kicks, 10 plyo lunges and 15 wall ball sit-ups. RX for women was 105# for the cleans, but I'm nowhere near ready for that kind of weight. I put my 45# on the bar and got ready to go. I did my 10 cleans, then time for the bronco kicks. I've always modified them before, but today, there would be no modifications. I did my 5 bronco kicks, then onto my plyo lunges, then my wall ball sit-ups. I had never done wall ball sit-ups either. I've always modified them to just plain old ab-mat sit-ups. Well, no modifications means no modifications.....so I did them. Today's WOD was for time, and I finished it in right around 36 minutes. The only thing I modified was the weight on my bar (45 as opposed to 105). Everything else was RX.
I can't believe I did it. I want to thank the folks from the 5:30 work-out (I don't know all of your names) and some of those coming in for 6:30. I was so afraid that Andrea was going to call time and say I had to quit. I didn't want to quit. I wanted to finish my workout. I am so grateful for you guys encouraging me, helping me count, and keeping me going when I thought for sure I wouldn't make it. This is why I love CrossFit!
No more mods for me....I might have to scale some of the weights, but I'm going to do everything without modifications going forward, unless there is a real reason for the modification....fear is not a real reason. I'm more afraid of spending the rest of my life overweight, than I am of falling on my face during a WOD.
I've got this....