The Incredible Shrinking Krista

Monday, February 28, 2011

Wowie, Zowie, Owie!!

I talked to my personal trainer today and he told me I need to be between 1200 and 1400 calories  on a daily basis.  He kinda gave me crap about the fact that I cheated a bit on my diet this week.  He says that part of him wants to be greedy and keep me here, but part of him wants me to get onto the ranch and The Biggest Loser.

In other news, I missed my appointment on Friday night with another trainer, Michael, and trust me when I tell you that he made me pay for it in a BIG way today.  I doubt I'll be able to walk tomorrow.  Both Chris and Michael believe in putting cardio into your resistance training work-out to keep your heart-rate up and help you to lose more weight.  Well, they both are fans of having me run sets of stairs between weight lifting reps, and I have to say, my legs are KILLING me!  I think I'm going to start running up and down stairs at the house to get better at it, because those trips up and down the stairs are hurting me in a big way. 

I read yesterday that for every 10 pounds extra you carry around, you put 40 extra pounds on your knees.  So if I'm 130 pounds overweight, I am putting an extra 520 pounds of pressure on my knees...I don't doubt the validity of this because every time I go up and down those steps, I feel like my knees might explode! 

I really like Chris and Michael and truly feel that if I don't make The Biggest Loser, I can trust that they will help me to reach my weightloss and fitness goals. 

Till later


Sunday, February 27, 2011

Seriously? Yah, Happy Birthday to me.

Seriously?  Okay--so I have worked out with my new least favorite friend, Chris (j/k) 3 days, and I can not lift my arms, my arms back, quads and calfs are so sore, I feel them all with every step.  I denied myself cheesecake on my birthday, and only ate half of my dinner in an effort to cut calories and get on  the road to weightloss.  I have averaged under 1100 calories the last 3 days, and worked out at least 30 minutes a day--how much weight have I lost?!?!  NONE!!  NOT 1 POUND!!!

I swear, this is a never-ending battle for me and one that is frustrating as all hell!  Why is it that I can't see the slightest budge in the scale from week-to-week when I need and want this so badly?  I know I can do this, but I just don't know how and when it is actually going to happen. 

Enough whining, time to go eat my oatmeal and a banana for breakfast.....not giving up, no matter how long this road is, or how long it takes!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

WOW--I think Chris is my personal version of Bob

I started working out with a new personal trainer last night, named Chris.  He has been a personal trainer for 22 years, and I think he must have worked with Bob Harper, because he is about to KILL me!  Today was round 2 and after having me run stairs and lift weights for 30 minutes, he put me on the treadmill for 20 minutes at 2.2 mph and an incline of 5.0. 

Last night Chris told me that I had to stop saying "I can't", which is ironic because I don't let my students say "I can't".  He reminded me that words are very powerful, which is true, and forbade me from saying it again in his presence.  So, after kicking my butt on what he calls super sets, incorporating resistance and cardio, he put me on the treadmill, and told me to walk for 20 minutes.  He went to work out another client and I was left to my own devices on the treadmill.  I would really like to know why, but my brain started telling me "you can't do this, what are you thinking?  Get off this treadmill, NOW, or I am going to make you throw-up!!"  I gave in at the 7 1/2 minute mark and got off the treadmill.  I went to get a drink of water and was headed for the door, when I saw Ella in the child care room and remembered that one of my big motivations for doing this is to get healthy and be a good role model for my kids!  I can not allow myself to quit.  so, I got back on the treadmill and walked for an additional 15 minutes!!  This is going to be a long, tough journey, but anything worth having is worth working for.

I forgot the best part.  Chris asked me last night to go buy a "goal outfit".  I told him I already had one, my concert black dress from college.  He asked me what size it was and I said, "16", he laughed and told me I'd be wearing that this summer.  He wants me to go to Target or Kohls and buy a goal outfit in a size 6 or 8.  This idea is completely laughable to me, because I cannot remember the last time I fit into single digit sizes.  I'm going to do it because he told me to, but it is definitely a HUGE leap for me to believe that I will be wearing those sizes...Oh, and he says I'll be in that goal outfit by Christmas.....Here's hoping!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

The story of my life....

So, I have been weighing myself and participating in a weekly weigh-in group.  I had lost 7 pounds from the beginning of the year until last Sunday, but knew that some of my weightloss was attributed to being too sick to care about eating.  This week has been a very tumultuous one, with lots of emotions and things that I do NOT enjoy dealing with.  I can't pin-point a specific instance of eating emotionally this week, but since I gained 2 pounds, I'm guessing I did something I shouldn't have. 

As those of you know me can attest to, when I want something, I become fixated, almost obsessed with it, until I either get it or get told "NO!"  well, this biggest loser thing is killing me!  I am following a number of the casting directors on Facebook, and every little update gets me excited.  I am 2 weeks away from going to audition and just can't wait.  My life feels like it has been turned on its head lately, and I could really use something constructive to hang on to! 

So--here we are, 7 weeks into the new year and I've lost a total of 5 pounds since the beginning of 2011.  I'm not exactly making headway toward my goal of losing 120 pounds...UGH!!


Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Oh, the drama....

Okay, so since I have started applying for "The Biggest Loser" I have approached it much in the same way that I take on any new task....I have gone everywhere I could think of and scoured every inch of internet space I could find about how to get on the show.  Let me just say, that doing so has left me a bit overwhelmed, and even surprised by some people out there.  Now, I'm not here to judge, but it is one of those things like, "Why do we need to tell people in the McDonald's drive thru that the coffee that they order is, indeed, hot?"  You see, some people apparently don't have any social skills at all. 

Case-in-point...I have found a Facebook page for one of the casting directors of The Biggest Loser and one of the many things that she had to request, sadly enough, is that people not bombard her page with self-promotional stuff because she uses it as an avenue to keep Biggest Loser hopefuls up to date on what is happening in the Biggest Loser casting process.  Being a text-book rule follower, I have done exactly as asked, but imagine my surprise when someone who hasn't been around talking to other hopefuls about her application or video process jumps onto the page, posts a video link and prefaces it with "This is NOT a self-promotional video.....I got a VIP pass to a casting call because of this video, so if you want to get on the show, watch my video and use it as your model."  I mean, really?  The casting directors have repeatedly posted that they want everyone to "BE YOURSELF" in your audition tape, so clearly, copying her video would be me, acting like her.  Clearly, that won't work.....Then, she goes out on the discussion board where people have asked for feedback and starts tearing apart the videos that people have posted out there asking for feedback, and starts ripping them apart, comparing hers to theirs, etc.  She has started a blog with Biggest Loser polls for hopefuls to weigh in on, and even listed her own casting tips...This level of brazenness dumbfounds me, to be quite honest.  I mean, I'm glad she got a VIP pass and everything, but if you read the casting directors posts, this doesn't mean she is a shoe-in for the show.  All the VIP pass means is that you don't have to wait in line for hours on end, you get to show up at noon, and go to the front of the line at that point.  I won't even go into my editorial comments on her audition video.  Let's just say, my Mommy told me that if I didn't have anything nice to say, I shouldn't say anything at all, so I'm pleading the 5th on her video. 

Why can't people just go through the process, take it for what it's worth, and move on?  BTW, I can't imagine that I will audition for the biggest loser more than this season.  You see, I would love the help, the time, and the resources that are offered at the Biggest Loser Ranch.  I would love to have Bob kick my ass in the gym, and have Cara teach me how to box, its something I have always wanted to learn.  But if I'm being 100% honest with myself, I know that something drastic has got to change to get me healthy.  In my humble opinion, that doesn't mean that I keep applying to be a contestant on the Biggest Loser until I get on and get to avail myself of those resources, it means that I'm going to audition, but if I don't get on, I'm not going to sit back and let some casting director who lives in Hollywood decide what my future holds, or more importantly, how much I will weigh when I get there.  I really WANT and NEED this opportunity, but if I don't get it, I'm going to kick my own ass until it shrinks down to the appropriate size.  I'm tired of being fat....and no one has more power to change that than me!

Until next time....


Sunday, February 13, 2011

Sunday Check-in

So--as I wait to find out if I will get to be on "The Biggest Loser" I have joined an accountability group that will let me weigh in and be responsible for what I eat.  I weighed in this morning and found that I was down to 256 pounds, with is a total of 7 from where I was at the beginning of the year, and 4 from last Sunday.  The problem is, I'm keenly aware that I haven't eaten remotely normally this week because of being sick, so the liklihood is that once I am feeling better, and able to eat again, those pounds will come right back on.  I hope not, but we will have to wait and see. 

As for now, I'm at 5'2" and 256 pounds.  My goal is to get down to 135 this will likely be a LONG journey.


Saturday, February 12, 2011

The Incredible Shrinking Krista

Okay--so I haven't been the most effective blogger in the past, but this is going to be a form of accountability for me.  I have made the decision to pursue the possibility of getting onto The Biggest Loser, season 12.  I had started to research the possibility of having weightloss surgery, only to find that my clotting disorder that I suffer from makes me an even higher risk candidate for the surgery than the average person.  I have 3 babies that I brought into this world, and doing something that would increase the risk of them losing their Mommy is just not something I am comfortable with. 

So--here's where things are at the moment--

I have completed and e-mailed my 15 page application to be on The Biggest Loser, as well as my audition video. 
you can find my audition video here if you would like to watch it:

I have reservations at the Econo Lodge in Orlando, Florida to attend the open casting call there on March 5.  From my understanding, you go and wait in line for your opportunity to meet with the casting director.  You will be called in in groups of 10 or so for 5-7 minutes with the casting directors. At that time you will turn in an abbreviated version of the application, as well as pictures of you at a lower weight, and what you look like now.  Once that is over, the casting directors make calls that evening before 9 or 10 p.m. to the people that they liked and invite them back for one-on-one interviews on Sunday.  Once that happens, if you are called back for an interview, you wait to see and may be invited to a "finals week" in CA. 

If I do not get a call back at the audition, I will still be taking as many steps as possible to get this weight off on my own.  I need to lose this weight so that I can be as healthy as possible.  My kids deserve the mother that I should be, not the overweight exhausted mother that I currently am. 

Follow me in my journey to lose 130 pounds and get myself healthy!