The Incredible Shrinking Krista

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Epiphany of all Epiphanies!

Tonight I got smacked in the face with a realization that has never really computed before. 
First, I saw the following quote on a friend of mine's facebook page,
"Love yourself. Accept yourself. Forgive yourself and be good to yourself because without you the rest of us are without a source of many wonderful things. - Leonardo Buscaglia"  Thank you for posting this Andrea Canady Logan!!!
Then, this evening, I spent hours talking to and connecting with some women who I used to work with when I was teaching.  It felt so awesome to be interacting with them and catching up!  I hadn't seen one of them since I quit teaching in April, and I really enjoyed talking to her! 
You see, I came home from my evening with friends and had to "text or facebook" the host when I got here because it was after midnight and she wanted to be sure I had made it home safely.  I got online to do that and began chatting with another person who I had the privilige of getting to know as a colleague, who has also since left the teaching profession.  After chatting with her for a while, I went over to check into another online group that I have been in contact with for years.  All of a sudden it hit me.  I have been so far unplugged from my life because I've been too damn busy being plugged in to all the little technological devices that our amazing world has invented.  It seems I can't go a day without checking my 4 e-mail addresses, facebook, twitter, and other online connection groups.  As a result of all of this online social networking, I've not been the wife or mother that my husband and children deserve, or, quite frankly, that Krista that I deserve!! 
So, here's the plan to test this theory I have come up with.  It seems to me that if my life became so fragmented and unplugged when all these little techology decided were added into it, that removing some of them will free up a lot of time to get myself back on track and where I want to be as a person.  So, from now, until further notice, I will only allow myself to be on facebook or twitter, text or online at all, for that matter, during the hours that I am at work.  I will allow myself to blog each evening about this before I go to bed, which means, no computers, or cell phones or anything from the time I pull into my driveway, until I get ready for bed, typically around 11:00 in the evening.  When I log on in the evening, I will be limiting myself to checking the weather for the following day and updating my blog.  I am going to dedicate myself to getting healthy both physically and mentally in the new year.  Time to unplug all the stupid technology, and plug back into who I am as a person, and who I have always wanted to be. 
I am going to keep this commitment until June 1 of 2012, and hold myself accountable.  I can't say that I will "try" because as I have heard more times than I can count, thank you yoda, "There is no try, there is only DO!"  Trying gives one permission to fail, and seeing as how I've perfected that little manuever, it's time to perfect a new one....succeeding!!!!
Good bye, Krista of 1975-2011, Welcome, Krista of 2012 and beyond!!

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